Myself.

There were things that couldn't be stopped

There were things that couldn't be said

We listen and don't respond or

We listen and speak in fear.

Fear over shadows what I first thought.

My thoughts no longer mattered and what ever I decided to do never happened.

My dreams became fears that I no longer wished to accomplish.

My accomplishments no longer existed

The goal that I had set for myself was no longer there and everything that I had been working for seemed to no longer matter.

I wish that things were not like this and that I was focus on what I wanted but I cant concentrate.

Maybe I am just trying to find myself in this journey and this is the process. 

I find it difficult to be goal oriented and be ambitious because I have seen how these things can ruin someone and I don't want to become like that and have to have a reality check to see what truly matter and that what  I have is better than what I sometimes want and desire.

To my family whom I love with all my heart.