Myself.

There were things that couldn't be stopped

There were things that couldn't be said

We listen and don't respond or

We listen and speak in fear.

Fear over shadows what I first thought.

My thoughts no longer mattered and what ever I decided to do never happened.

My dreams became fears that I no longer wished to accomplish.

My accomplishments no longer existed

The goal that I had set for myself was no longer there and everything that I had been working for seemed to no longer matter.

I wish that things were not like this and that I was focus on what I wanted but I cant concentrate.

Maybe I am just trying to find myself in this journey and this is the process. 

I find it difficult to be goal oriented and be ambitious because I have seen how these things can ruin someone and I don't want to become like that and have to have a reality check to see what truly matter and that what  I have is better than what I sometimes want and desire.

To my family whom I love with all my heart.

The Beginning.

The Beginning. 

It says that I published this on August 23, 2013 but I didn't write anything.
I started this blog to write about my time in college. I started school late August and leaving my family has been one of the hardest things I have done. I know that it was going to be difficult but I never thought I would miss home this much.I guess though that this is all part of the process the experience really. Maybe I am just using this as a way for me to look back when my college life is over but that is just the beauty of it. Whether you choose to follow me on this journey, well that is up to you. However, if you are still here then Welcome. I don't plan on having certain things to write about but I will try to cover the basics of my day and at the end I will dedicate space for what I find to be most important for me to remember. It is near the end of October now and i have lost valuable time but lets pretend that I just started today October21,2013. Welcome to my journey.

-Jocelyn